I have a sneaking suspicion that our dog is pregnant. About 8 weeks ago, she ran off and was alone with a male German Shepherd … while she was in heat. And for the last few days, she’s exhibited symptoms of late pregnancy in a canine. I’m no vet and all I have to refer to is google, so I guess we will see in the coming days! Either way, I find it all so fascinating. Perhaps it’s my maternal side coming out, but I’m really interested in the entire process. I’m not really interested in the mess, but anything to do with life and God’s creation just simply fascinates me.
But this isn’t about dog birth. Perhaps if my sweet girl delivers pups, I’ll share the story. Til then, I’ve got a pretty good one about when God used her to teach me …
It’s about the moment when I looked into my dogs eyes yesterday. I had been checking her tummy and was just loving on her. Unfortunately, between running a household and chasing kids, I don’t give the dog much attention. I love her, but she’s just a quiet companion most days and I’ll forget she’s even there! (Unless she’s chasing the kitten.) However, as I looked into her eyes, I realized something that broke my heart. I wondered what exactly she sees from me every day. She sees my ugliest moments, the things I’d never want broadcasted to the world, my poor attitude, bad tone of voice, or words that should never be said. She quietly observes. And even though I can be quite the failure, she never fails to stick close to me and love on me. She just loves me anyway.
The Lord used that moment to remind me that although I’m at home most of the time, my job to live a godly life doesn’t change. What you or my friends see doesn’t matter if what happens behind closed doors tells a different story. Character is who you are when no one is looking.
Oh, but I do have people looking. Maybe it’s not a boss that signs my paycheck or someone I’d like to impress. It’s three little people that God has entrusted to me to raise, teach, and nurture. Most importantly, my job is to teach them about Him. They also see me at my worst. They’ve seen me lose my patience and they’ve seen my worst days.
The most important thing for them to see is that in spite of much failure, I get on my knees and ask for forgiveness and grace … and then I try again. They need to see that what Daddy and I teach them is real and not a far away concept they only hear about at church.
That, my friends, is a monumental task. It’s convicting to know that they see more than anyone else … and sometimes it ain’t always pretty.
My dog will always be here, as long as the Lord allows her. Dogs are faithful and loving. That’s just how they’re made. However, my kids can decipher the things they see me do. As they grow and mature, they will learn from me and make decisions based on what I taught through my actions. Yikes. They aren’t dumb. They see things more clearly than most adults. I can’t fool them.
This realization just shows me how great of a need I have for my great Savior! I need His forgiveness, mercy, grace, and strength to do the job that He has given me. And I feel so often that I’m the wrong lady for the job. However, He continues to forgive and teach me. The best thing I know to do is stay in the Word and in prayer, surrendering my will to His as I go through my day.
Who knew the Lord could use my sweet dog to teach me all of this? This hasn’t even been the first time He has used this dog to set me straight. Hey, He did use a talking donkey!
God uses the foolish to confound the wise, yall. That theme just keeps playing in my life.
1 John 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.